Day two!  I'm writing here again. Yay. I remembered.  See Dreamwidth is really hard for me to remember. It's not like Discord that gives me reminders it exists. Dreamwidth is in the drawer I only remember to open when I realize it's been forever since I've opened that drawer.

So what am I up to?

I'm betaing an amazing story and so excited to get to beta it.

I'm still working on Deep Down Below and I think I finally have the next chapter in my mind worked out. It is so not at all like the original chapter...whoops.

I keep meaning to remember to read books. Like actual books that aren't fanfiction. I mostly forget books exist. I have several books I really want to read and I start them, but then I forget they exist. I am enjoying reading to my youngest. We are reading The Vanderbeekers of 41st Street. It's a kids novel about a family getting evicted and the kids trying to convince the grumpy landlord to let them stay. Neither of my older kids would read the book with me, so I'm excited to read it now.

My eldest is reading Murderbot. She's fairly far into the series and I just now finished book two.  At first she didn't like it, but the whole series has grown on her. 

So anyway, I did it. I wrote. I'm here!  Yay.

 i want to try writing entries daily and see how it helps my mood and how I think about things. I bet it will last maybe two or three days, but I'd like to try for a six day streak. I can do it? Maybe?

I'm still somehow working on Deep Down Below. Seriously?  Why is it taking so long. The story was already written 20. years aog! It wasn't supposed to be a current WIP? But I do think the new story is a hell of a lot better than the old one and I want to do it right. Four chapters left. I can do it!

I'm feeling exhausted even though I'm working less. It feels like very area of my life wants attention, but I want to put my attention into writing and reading instead. I've decided I'm just going to have to find time, because without writing and reading...well...life isn't as good without. I've come to a point where fandom is a lot of my joy.

I'm hosting another AO3 writing group in person this Saturday. Every time I mention this to people, they all seem surprised I know enough people to invite to such an event. I suppose I am lucky. I know a few podficcers in person...who I met in person before I knew they did podfic.  I know several fic writers, too, in person. So an AO3 group makes sense. I'd much rather socialize with AO3 folks anyway than a lot of people who I don't seem to have much in common with.

I've been lonely.  It's strange how in a group of people or while doing activities that I can be so lonely, but I am. Maybe the AO3 group will help.  Maybe I just need people around me to not always be upset. Maybe I need to not always feel the crushing weight of everything. Maybe I just need to write and eat and be merry or whatnot.

So how are you all?